Where and How did it start for me?

Our spiritual journey started the moment we entered this World. The journey however starts on a low note, we are born into a deep sleep where we are wiped out off all our previous experiences and memories. We seem to be starting on fresh plate. The part of kicking of the journey is self realization where we slowly over a period of time become aware, and continue to step out of our deep sleep like state and increasingly know our true self and are ultimately liberated and fully awake when we leave this world.
When I was around 4th or 5th class (10 year old) I used to have a re-occurring dream about existence and souls which till today is rather very clear.
In this dream I am presented of a world in which there is a something like a bright source which is pure form of ultra bright energy form which has no beginning nor any end. Out of this source a speck of energy form extends further away from the center of the source to create / become part of an experience. Let's call this experience creation process being triggered by Maya (Illusionary intent). This individual energy speck though it never really separates itself from the source based on its experience either moves away or towards the center of the Source. This independent movement from the center of the source feeds the source back with various experiences empowering it. As such there multiple illusionary worlds being created by many independent energy specks with varying levels of complexities. The level of complexities will define how much movement in levels we experience in relation to the proximity with the center of the source.
Our intent of existence in this world is to make our way back to the source and as close to the center as possible after we exit this world. This world is an illusionary creation of ourselves to magnify and provide with experiences. We during this illusionary existence try to increase and improve our energy vibrations and raise up to resonate in vibration with the source. Once this resonating frequency is achieved we self assimilate with source.
If we run out of time, we restart again and continue this journey as a new life form and continue acquiring experiences and getting higher in vibrations and aligning with source vibrations. This process continues till the goal of realignment is achieved. We at end of our journey assess our experience and vibrational frequency achieved and at our own choice pickup the time, place, society and family optimal for our amplifying the needed experience. The suffering or hardships that we experience is our choices and making. No matter how bad all the hardships and suffering emotions that keep occuring during our life there is neither good or bad in the suffering as ultimately these happen to serve our own purpose of our journey.
Our journey has no Gods to guide and look upto. We are own creators and makers of our own experiences. We have to walk this path on our own. Salvation, Mukti or Moksha that we are all taught about it all about unification of our Atman (Soul) with the Paramtman(Holy Soul/ Source).
This dream was a reoccurring theme with depictions of light being bent and becoming a little greyer and elevating itself to the brightest self.
I also had vivid memories of waking up and seeing myself (body) through a 2nd person perspective and though I am someone else. It was odd but I wanted to see myself as others would see me. All this dreams and memories kept me on a constant hunt to understand myself and evolve and as years past and I grew close to religions and then away I slowly but surely made sense of the Spiritual journey that was being projected within me. Fast forward to today I have a greater clarity, and an yearning to seek more real experiences and journey towards self-assimilation and merger with source. I see the patterns and illusions that this world offers. As I opened up I get to see and realize the dual nature of this world like Ying-Yang, Good and bad is what keeps this world going. Moving to neutrality away from duality will improve our vibrational frequency. And this for me is journey and a challenge thrown at myself everyday.
I hope your own personal journey on seeking the truth is realized soon.

Defining God and God's qualities

Today we are not in a position to define our own self. We have little to no understanding who we are, where we come from, where would we end up and what are true purpose of existence is.
The least we try to do in this process is to create a personality and associate ourselves with that created, conditioned and made-up personality, rarely exploring ourselves.
In this same way we try to identify certain traits and qualities that we find pleasing and acceptable societally. As we have been incorrectly being building personalities of ourselves we have for ages being trying to personalize God with a character and qualities. Any attempt to put a definition to crack this would not be right, because when we are unable to define in entirety a smaller creation like ourselves how are we eligible, qualified enough to define the very source of creation in entirety. What we have come to know of God and source is culturally fed and societies existentially conditioning and nothing beyond it.

Yes perhaps the true nature of source is "The Creator, The Creation and everything within it". This source is something we are all truly part of, but we try to experience it and dissolve in it while being it. This is strange but the truth. We are in no position to completely comprehend the Truth about God, know about the source, make knowledge about.
We can experience and know about God by dissolving and becoming part of the source and hence becoming our true nature which is source.
The True answer to that we have to seek the answer for ourselves and not dwell in what we are being told or taught about. We are The Seekers of Truth, knowing is not believing. Knowing is experiencing ourselves first hand.